My name is Brandie, and welcome to my blog! Through this blog I hope to discuss all religions, and not just focus on my own personal beliefs. I desire to give people the full picture and discuss various beliefs and religions. I’ll be learning as I write my posts. I find religion very interesting, and I love asking people what they believe in. Just as much as I like to ask what other people believe in, I like to share my story with people as well.
So read on for my story…
My parents got a divorce when I was two, and I grew up going to a non-denominational Christian church. When I was in fourth grade I would wake up in the middle of the night with really bad anxiety attacks driven by fear. My stomach would ache, and I would shake. I wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep, I would be up for hours.
One night, while I was having an anxiety attack, I picked up a book my Nina had given me. It wasn’t the bible but it was a daily devotional book, which had different verses on each page. This night I opened the book to a random page, and it read, ” The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged” Deuteronomy 31:8. After I read that I understood an aspect of who this God was that they talked about at church. He would protect me, and I did not have to be afraid because He had me, so I began to pray. I still get anxiety today but it’s not as nearly bad as it was before.
As life went on, I went through the motions of going to church, and just went because it was what you did. Fast forward and I was a junior in high school. One day my pastor was giving a sermon, and he had long rope about 20 ft on the stage. He said, “This portion of the rope,”and held his hands a few centimeters apart, “represents your life on earth,” then pausing he re-positioned his hands and said, “and the rest,”pointing to the rest of the 19ft of rope, “Represents your life after you die, what are you living for or who?” It was in that moment that I realized I hadn’t fully surrendered my life to Christ. I wanted to make a change to follow Christ, and I wanted to allow Him to direct me in my life and live for Him. I had to let go of someone who was holding me back from growing in my relationship with Christ, and it was hard.
A couple days later I went to my friend Heather’s house for the weekend. She had just made a to decision to follow Christ a couple months ago. We began to talk and she asked me if I knew what the gospel was. All I knew was that Jesus had died on the cross for us, but not sure why. She then explained to me that God sent His son, Jesus, to live a perfect life. A life that no human could live, because of the sin in the world. Sin is what separates us from God, because God is perfect and can’t be in the presence of sin. But this is a problem because God loves us, He created us to be in a relationship with Him. So He sent Jesus who was then to die on the cross, in our place. It was in our place because, ” For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord” Romans 6:23. Jesus paid the wage for us, so that we could know Him. Hearing this, I was amazed and it all clicked. I then prayed to God and asked Him to come into my life.
This was the moment I began my relationship with Christ. My life is not perfect, this is a perception some people have about Christianity. In accepting Christ I am acknowledging how much I am in need of a savior. Life can get so messy and confusing, and God has helped me prevail while teaching me so much. He is a HUGE mystery, and I still can’t answer all the questions about life or Him.